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I am unhappy.
Not like depressed unhappy, just unhappy about certain things in my life and I need to change them to be happy but I’m not doing that just yet type of unhappy. You know what I’m saying, right?
The more I sit around and beat myself up about this unhappiness, the more I realize what I am doing to myself. Just like my body vs. mind battle, I am now encountering an inner vs. outer struggle. I take really good care of my inner self. I feed it the right foods (well most of the time), take my vitamins, stay away from drugs as well as nurture my soul at church, my Small group/bible reading studies and time spent with my friends and man. My insides are happy! But it’s my outer self that is in need of some attention.
I need to get a haircut. I need to get to the gym. I need to fix my habits to stop my face from breaking out. I need to floss more. I need to stop biting my nails. I need to get to the gym (this is an important one worth repeating). I need to moisturize more. I need to shave my legs. I need to get a pedicure.
And that is just the top of the icing. Although I am doing a great job in the upkeep on my inner body, I am totally slacking on my outer self. And this my friends is the secret to my unhappy state of mind. I know beauty is seen on the inside, not the outside (blah blah blah) but what do I do when my insides are screaming of happiness but my outsides and dying in neglect…?
Are you more of any inner or outer care person? Or are you good at the upkeep of both? Do share your wisdom!
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i adore you. i want to hug you. selfishly because i need one too.
I feel you lady, I've been feeling the same way lately.
but your inner beauty is so AWESOME that it doesn't even matter if you need a haircut or have a pimple!
when i work at home i take much better care of myself. i realized this over the past week or so because it's just so much easier. i sit with a floss pick going at my teeth while i read blogs, paint my nails while on a conference call (shh!) and wear less makeup if i plan on being home all day, which gives my skin a break.
i'd say get some Moroccan Oil or Enjoy hair oil to use before you blow dry. when i use this stuff i can go months without a haircut because it protects it so well and keeps it so soft. also, get some oil of olay makeup removing wipes to keep on your nightstand for the days you're too damn tired to wash your face, and get some coconut or grapeseed oil to moisturize your skin (grapeseed also helps fight acne!). it's awesome when you can cook AND look pretty with the same products. doing those things makes it SO much easier to keep up with the high end maintenance of being a girl.
oh look at this long ass beauty comment, i sound like Mae! haha.
I am the same way - and I am blllahhhhh right now. I hate it :( I don't like what my outsides have become...
I well-remember your mind vs. body post Jenni. Wow has it been that long already?? The good news is even though you're feeling kinda bleh right now I think you're in a better position this time.
I say this because I believe it's far more difficult to change who we are on the inside. Skin can clear, hair can be styled. Legs can be shaved. Personality issues, behaviour and habits are much more difficult to address.
I've said before you have just about the biggest most selfless heart I've seen. It's a large part of why I adore you. Your outside is certainly important, but I think as a person you're pretty grounded and have your values in place. I commend you for wanting to work on your exterior and I encourage and support you all the way. Just keep in mind what you have going for you, because it's a lot.
xo
I love how you separated those inner and outer care from each other.... I always thought they somewhat go hand in hand (like if you eat right, you won't have breakouts...etc.)
I guess there are things that don't .
I see myself go through cycles - taking better care of one over the other. It's kind of hard to keep up with both *haha*.
I like to think that I take care of both, but I am totally in the same boat as you. I work out everyday, but I JUST got my first pedicure in months today, and I am totally slacking on everything else. I guess there is just no time!
Anyway, I think you are beautiful, inside and out, and I adore you!
i agree with mandy that you are such an awesome person no one would notice that you need a haircut or have a zit. but i know what it is like to not be happy with somethings.
i like to think i take care of both - i've noticed lately i've become more aware of my outside beauty - is that a bad thing?
I totally feel you here. It's hard sometimes, but if you try to just do one small thing for your insides and one of your outsides every day then you'll be on the track to feeling better.
And just so you know - Your gorgeous soul makes your outside look beautiful and happy all the time :)
I think I'm better at maintenance of my outer, and that sometimes tends to seep into the inner...
I feel that if I were better at maintaining inside, I wouldn't be so prone to frantic outbursts for catharsis, or random beauty retail therapy. I also feel that I wouldn't be so lazy to go catch my dreams, and I would have done a lot of things before the ripe old age of 29. But I haven't.
I'm praying for you, and I'm rooting for everything you do. If you ever need an ear, you already know I'm here for you. You are always welcome to talk my ear off, because you're the biggest delight of a person I know.
My writing style is binary opposite than you. I write with abandon, and my writing often writes itself. I hardly edit myself, and often find adding more and more each time I proof... but I'm a spinner of fiction, not insightful prose as you write. I think that's why I resonate more with your writing than with mine, because you write truth from the heart, and I write fiction to infuse my heart's words into other people's mouths.
And OMG, Andy Samberg is kind of my dream beau. A skinny, funny, musical, nerdy sort of dude. Kind of like Nate, but without the skinny/musical part. :) If Andy Samberg and Ben Barnes (King Caspian - Narnia) became a hybrid, that would be, like, my dream come true.
Uh yeah, you get me. I get you. I smell what you're cookin'. :)
XX.
Mae Lu, @ thereafterish.
PS. Any assistance you need in the skincare/beauty department... I think I'm your girl.
Ask me anything. If you're open to it, we can romp around Ulta or Sephora or even just Target (though Walgreens and CVS have better return policies), and I can help you with the outer, which will translate to the inner!
My writing style is binary opposite than you. I write with abandon, and my writing often writes itself. I hardly edit myself, and often find adding more and more each time I proof... but I'm a spinner of fiction, not insightful prose as you write. I think that's why I resonate more with your writing than with mine, because you write truth from the heart, and I write fiction to infuse my heart's words into other people's mouths.
And OMG, Andy Samberg is kind of my dream beau. A skinny, funny, musical, nerdy sort of dude. Kind of like Nate, but without the skinny/musical part. :) If Andy Samberg and Ben Barnes (King Caspian - Narnia) became a hybrid, that would be, like, my dream come true.
Uh yeah, you get me. I get you. I smell what you're cookin'. :)
XX.
Mae Lu, @ thereafterish.
Uh....
How do you delete portions of a comment? I really, really forgot to delete portions of this last ones, it was a copy from an earlier comment to someone else...
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